Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Coming out of a flare is a very weird thing. I'm really glad that I'm starting to feel better......but this is the point when I am really cranky. Early on in a flare, I am either too tired or too foggy to summon the energy to be grouchy. But as my energy slowly builds, I find this delayed response to the yukky-ness of a flare finally lets loose.
"What? I've been out of commission for a whole week? What a waste of time! And I STILL don't feel good enough to head out to do everything that I want. Wah!!"
I pick on John. I nag the kids. I scold the dogs. I reminisce about imagined slights to my delicate ego that occurred years...no, decades ago. I argue with television reporters at the top of my lungs. I turn into a backseat driver and a Sunday morning coach.
I decide that the only thing that can boost my spirits is a yummy (insert any high calorie, high sugar, high fat, high wheat food item here). And after I successfully bully poor John or Terese or whoever into procuring said awful food item for me and I wolf it down......then I'm even more cranky because I feel GUILTY for eating said crappy food. Which I know will only make me feel worse in the long run.
So I stomp and roar (at nobody in particular) and pout, which takes a lot of energy and then I'm really tired. So I head to bed, and when I've had time to rest enough that my brain cells function somewhat normally again, realize that having the energy to be a stark raving bratty lunatic is actually a sign of recovery, and so could almost be viewed as a positive thing, kind of. Sorta. Well, it's better than being a stark raving bratty lunatic that is too tired to rant and rave.
Good thing this phase of flare recovery usually doesn't last all that long or things would be pretty ugly around here.....what's this?.......oh, for cryin' out loud....WHO LEFT THE CAP OFF THE TOOTHPASTE?!
I NEED LEMON MERINGUE PIE! NOW! Or heads will roll!
Luscious-looking lemon pie image and recipe found here. Somebody make one for me ASAP.